Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Goodbye FB

My best friend in lawschool just chewed me out for all things related to Facebook (FB). She said I was posting too much, spending too much time on there, posting weird links and music, but mostly was making a mockery of the process of studying for the bar.

In my defense...I study a lot, and don't go out too much, and when I take a break instead of calling someone I get on FB for a few minutes. Now these breaks happen probably 15-20 times a day, but who is aggregating (a fancy law word for counting). Anyways, couple my hankering for my Idaho friends, my constant stimulated state as I drink my Yerba Mate (which makes me feel a little silly/lovey and social= posting a lot of crap on FB and commenting on other people's crap) and my love for FB in general... I guess my fb presence was getting a bit intense.

Now, what pissed her off the most i my new positive take on bar study. One of the professors in the Prep Course (BARBRI = $3500 = giving me tips on how to pass the bar, daily hw assignments and lectures) said that there are two things in life our brain recognizes and treats differently, things we get to do and things we have to do, and that if we think of Bar prep. as a privilege, and something that will bless our lives and the lives of will greatly enhance the experience for us, and possibly help in passing the dang thing. This "pep talk" was pivotal for me to up the intensity of my studying. Anyways so on FB I would comment, "I love learning about the Tort of Battery, such a privilege, especially the AZ distinctions of the law"...I would post that on another law students wall, to let them know we are all in this crazy state together. Anyways, she thought I was mocking the seriousness of the Professional Right of Passage which is the bar exam.

Also, I think people were not taking my "hey i gotta study so we can't hang out" excuses seriously...because they would see me on FB 15-20x a day. I have to be a woman who can be all her FB friends.

Anyways, I guess what had to be done, and my newly trained logical mind aptly concluded, twas time to cut the chord with my fb account for the next six weeks. It was sucking up my down time (which should be used to exercise and make more veggie shakes with food from the organic compound (my parents yard)and I was being misinterpreted on FB at least by one stressed out law student, what I found was humorous and ironic in ways (BAR prep. fun and interesting--I sort of do think it is) she found to be obnoxious and mocking.

So as you all, (maybe 5 readers) are my witness. I Jodiane Goodman, solemnly promise to not log onto my deactivated FB account for 6 weeks and one day... July 27, if I do I have to make everyone of you a special veggie shake with goodness from the organic compound and I will not go to Last Chance till I am 34 (that is Sept. 27 2011). As you can tell I am super serious about this self-imposed FB hiatus.

PS....I probably shouldn't turn all my energies to blogging either, cause that is sort of the same thing, ie time waste, distraction, keeps me from don't expect too many more posts. Just needed to tell you all about this HUGE, LIFE CHANGING decision to cut out FB for 6 weeks. I need your support and prayers.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

So poor.

I owe a lot of money to a lot of people. I hate being poor, in debt and currently helpless to remedy the situation as I am studying for the bar. I wouldn't change the decision to go to law school. I loved it. I miss it. I can't believe how lucky I am that I got to live my dreams. I don't even want babies right now. Not till I am in my late 30's. Not sure if I keep pushing it back because I have to adjust to the reality of the situation or if it's what I really want. I think it's what I really want. Oh but I adore being an aunt, to the three loveliest ladies, and one handsome little gentleman. How did I get so lucky. I am surrounded by the best people in the world. I love living on the "organic compound". We have apple trees, fresh grapes off the vine, cumquats, a garden with squash, tomatoes, cucumbers and peppers. And i grow sprouts and am starting wheat grass trays. I drink a veggie shake every day. I love it. I think I am interesting and hilarious and smart. Probably the three most important traits a person could have, in my humble opinion. And I think I am beautiful. Am I allowed to think these things. To really finally like myself, sometimes I can't even handle it. After all the years of self-doubt (oh it's still here, just way different) and heaven help us eating disorders and lame dudes (yeah, they are still here too, i just wish there were either more of them, or better quality, I can't decide). I am so happy when I work hard, that is the secret of life I know it. Why am I ever lazy. I finally know what makes me happy, working my ass off. That applies to school, djing, working out, and hopefully soon being a lawyer. And I have the best sister in the world, and she loves me just the way I am. That's lucky. Right now what I want for my dad and mom is for them to be 100 percent raw foodists. And it goes with out saying I want to be the greenest, most organic, locally grown, wild raw foodie in the WEST!! Oh yeah, I want to run really fast, and have fresher breath, and not snore. So here are my thoughts, I know they are random and not organized. But life is sweet, I sort of get that right now.